It’s hard for me to not be in control of situations. I’ve admitted this to you guys before in a previous blog post, potentially one about my car or work. But it goes beyond just not being in control of small situations at work, it’s for every part of my life. You can imagine how much I struggled when my husband said he wanted to let a buyer’s advocate be in control of our house buying endeavours. I actually felt a bit sick in the stomach at the thought of letting a buyer’s advocate near Melbourne decide where we will live and be in control of the bidding process. The whole concept just doesn’t sit right with me.
I even struggle to trust my husband to do things. He’s a great man and truly capable of doing everything by himself but I just can’t bring myself to. I like to be in control and I get serious anxiety if I’m not. I’m in therapy for it which is why my husband suggested that we get a buyer’s advocate. This way I’ll be able to put what I’m learning in therapy into practice, but it’s still too hard for me to be okay with it.
This is nothing against my husband or buyer’s advocate in Hampton. I don’t think these people are bad at their jobs, in fact, I’m sure in some instances they could be better at their jobs than I am, it’s just too much for me. I promise I’m trying to learn to delegate and trust others, but it’s going to have to happen in baby steps.
I appreciate that my husband is trying to help me by encouraging me to hire a buyer’s advocate, however, I think it’s something that I’m not going to be able to do this time around. Maybe when we’re ready to buy our second home I’ll be able to leave it up to an advocate.